Home safely :]

Highlight(s) for the day:
- Work.
- My bos/ my friend/ my admirer/ my boyfriend?? NOT.
- Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief.
- Someone walked into the ladies.

HAHAHAHAHA. I cant stop thinking bout it. Oh gosh. Just got home from 1B. Edmund, my BOS friend, sent me home with his housemate's car. A toyota K25 sumtin. Even he's not sure bout it. So yea. What gives. It's not important. What's more important is what I'm about to type next :P

So here goes. Lastnight, bos and I texted for a while. He is feeling down cz his football team lost for like 3-1 to the OPPONENT. And so, blablablablabla, agreed on having breakfast together the next day, which is today. Went to Old Town. I just drank this, I forgot what's the name. Neways, he had this toasted bread and half boiled eggs. There's a story behind the half boiled eggs. Long story short.
Melaka - kampung - grandparents - chickens - eggs - healthy - breakfast - 2 half boiled eggs - became a habit.
He always got a story behind everything lah. Which is good, cz I dont talk a lot xD

Just when I was done drinking my whatever-the-name-is of my drink, mom called. Told me to go to Center Atrium. Which is weird. I thought she wanted to have this mother and daughter bonding time in 1B, so I asked her "why, u want me to go shopping with you?". She's like "No, just come here". She keep on repeating the same thing for like a million times. And so, I told bos to come along cz he's done eating already what. Funny when he said he's SHY. Look who's talking big guy! xD
I insisted for him to come, so that I have an excuse to tell my mom that I have to go to work already. HAHA.

Anyways, both of us reached C.A, and I saw mom. Edmund was all shy and smiling and SHY. Funny lah u bos.
I intro-ed him to mom. Turns out that mom wants me to meet her friends. Unknown people. This happens often. Me, being forced to meet her friends. I got used to it already. Anyways, I "blessed" their hands as a sign of respect, and one of them said, "no blessing, just kiss" and our cheeks met. They were like wow you're so tall, are you a model. u'r a model?, u can become one. work as a model. blablabla. in tagalog lah of course. HAHA.

One of the aunt looked at Edmund and asked " your boyfriend?" What the hell lah. I was shocked and said "NO NO NO".
Mom was laughing only. And this aunt asked me few questions bout him. "Is he a local? Philipino?", "he's chasing you?", "it's okay if he admires you, he's a good looking fella". All of those were asked in tagalog. Translated it, as no philipinos will actually read my blog. I think. Haha. I'm so sorry lah Edmund if they freaked you out just now. But one thing's for sure, philipino people are friendly :))

Neways, went to office after that to runaway from all those Q&A's.
Changed and waited for my partner. Went to Harris for a while.
"If you could see me now" by Cecelia Ahern is not a bad novel though :)

After that, work work work. Quite boring today though, as there's not much crowd already.
Didnt actually ran out of sweets like last week. Last week, it takes only half an hour , and my basket is empty already.
But today, even standing for an hour didnt do any good. Tiring and boring. But at least there's children for me to see and smile with :)

After work, stayed in office for a while cz bos and I are gonna watch Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief.
I DID NOT regret watching it though. It's funny, at times. Interesting movie I must say :)
All those Greek stuffs. Poseiden actually reminded me of King Neptune from Spongebob Squarepants. Lame. I know :P
Overall, it's a nice movie lah. NICE.
After the movie, here comes the interesting part.
We both went out of the cinema and headed to the toilet.
And so, I was talking with bos and he wanted to go to the toilet. So I stood outside, checkin my phone, and somehow I just looked at the toilet door for a while and I saw Edmund coming out of the ladies. He was like, shocked with a smiling face. Or was it laughing? I dont know. What got into you? xD

Cant stop thinking bout it. I am now smiling alone. Today was the best day of work lah I must say xD
Neways, Bos sent me home. THANK YOU SO MUCH :)
Sent his housemates home 1st and then it''s my turn.
I just hope you dont get lost on your way home. Drive safe!
May God bless you. And about that walking into ladies room, take it as one of the unforgettable experience you got here in Sabah lah. At least now you have something funny to tell your grandchildren to in the future :P

Thanks for everything. I owe you a lot! :]
And sorry for the troubles I got you into today xD

Flashbacks :]

Highlight(s) for the day:
- I am missing Stanely
- Another day off :]

Another day wasted at home. I am bored. Soooooo bored.
My whole morning was spent on watching tv and looking at mom playing with the lappy.
She looks like a kid learning how to use a new gadget. And so, my name was called every now and then to help her with it. She got frustrated just using it but she had no choice cz the desktop had no modem as it was malfunctioning and she desperately needed to online just to check her mails and chat with some unknown people in yahoo.
I dont know what happened to the modem, but I wish that dad will bring it back home soon. As I am suffering for not having the chance to touch my lappy the whole morning :P

I went to bed for a while and woke up. Went to mom's room and finally, i get to play with it. I miss you lappy~
Well, mom was sittin beside me on the bed, and so, I had to open a website that both of us can actually relate to.
"Youtube". Well that's the best choice. The only choice, I must say.
We watched this KFC Group - Sacred Heart Cathedral carolers. KFC does not stands for Kentucky Fried Chicken here. It stands for Kadazan Filipino Chinese Group. Yes, the carolers were all from different races. Kadazan, Filipino and Chinese. My mom's included. Well I'm not cz I was goin to work as Santarina. My 1st job xD

Most of the members in the group were philipinos, and the males were mostly chinese. Kadazans, not much lah.
But they were friendly people. Their comments on me when they saw me was... it is strictly forbidden for me to say it or type it on public. I might as well just keep it to myself as it is an embarassment for me xD

Anyways, the videos that mom and I were watching in youtube was the ones that they sang in our house last 19th of December. Mom was in too. I was the suck-ish videographer. But then again, I enjoyed every moment of it. Although I slept earlier that night cz I have to go to work the next day, and they were all partying till 4 in the morning. Awesome people I tell ya. Not to mention, drunkers too :D

Anyways, that was what I did the whole time in mom's room. Watching philipinos videos. Even the shows in philipines. Funny I tell you. When oh when can I visit that country. Soon I hope :)

Stan texted me. Today's saturday. They always get their phones back on weekends.
That's the only time I can chat with Stan. We even talked on the phone for almost 2 hours or les,s last weekend.
I miss talking to him. We talked bout a bunch of stuffs. Mostly bout school. What silly stuffs we did last time. All those laughing just had to stay for 2 hours and less, and then it's gone, again.
When we both text, all we text is about the problems that we're facing in life.
We used to just talk bout it face to face in class cz we're sitting beside each other. Now that he's in PLKN in Melaka, the only way we can communicate is through our phones.

I remembered the day when we both realised that we're the only boy and girl sitting together. The others were partner-ed as same genders. Boys boys, girls girls. We're the most out-standing one. Boy Girl. HAHA. Well, not that anybody realised it. I think. We even called ourselves "Couple Senasib". As we both are facing tonnes of problems that never actually stopped bothering us. Family, Friends, School, Love life, Unsatisfactions regarding to our Physical Appearances. We tend to get that a lot. Never a day will laughter be gone from us. Him and his sense of humours. The way he laughs can actually spread like a disease or sumtin. We always laugh when it's in Biology class and Account class. Those who doesnt take Accounts stays in class, and there will be a teacher who will actually "GUARD" us.

Yes, GUARD is the right word for it. I hated it when it comes to Accounts. There's no freedom to even talk. That teacher never smiles and treated us like we're kindergarden kids. I remembered when Aubrey took a candid picture of her and then kedapatan. Not gonna type what she said to him. I am laughing like crazy now.
And I remembered when she hit Aubrey with a book. Wth was that for?? Poor Aubrey. I was shocked though when that happened. But it all ended with laughters when she stepped out of the class.

Ahh~ Highschool. Missing it so much already.
Anyways, I am quite sad that I wont be seeing Stan for another 3 months. Add them all up, it's almost half year. 6 friggin months man. Cant wait till it's June. Remember when we promised to go out, hit the cinema, shoppin, eat your favourite tom yam in Secret Recipe. All those can be done, only after I came back from my course. We're gonna celebrate our birthdays everyday! :D

As for Aubrey, I'm gonna miss you, you annoying lil bro. Good luck in bowling. Do go and practise more k. Remember to bend your knees and make sure your body posture is right. I am not here to remind you of it as I am goin to KL soon. Maybe you can try and record yourself while you bowl. That'll help. Coach K does that to us too right. For us to see our mistakes. I miss his yelling and sarcastic comments already xD

James, my best k-di/Godbrother. Good luck with your dreamgirl yea. I am always a phonecall/text/fb away. Just drop me a msg or wall post if you need my help in translating words. That's what you always need me for nowadays :P

Gene, my ngong-est brother. I will not forget you lah for Pete's sake. I am always here. Do update me with whatever you're doing in life, and yes, your love life too! :]

Jas and Yee Thing, stay pretty always. And both of you, please step out of the world of innocence. Drive safe chicas! :P

I am typing as if I'm leaving Sabah forever. Which I'm not xD
I know 3 months is not that long, compared to 5 years. Kan bos? :P
Hope you can get your annual leave and the raise you've been hoping of. Stay as busy as a bee lah. Show them what you got. You can do it man. Once you get your raise, dont forget me! Your so called loyal servant. I'll give you my account number if you want xD



Well, that's all for tonight.
Working tomorrow. Weee~

Deff-ness :]

Highlight(s) for the day:
- Fever. Again.
- Ear aches, tears flowing.
- Dr. Amrik Singh

Ah well. Highlights says it all. I am sic k, again. Thank God Kev told me to rest today, or else, I would've just collapse in 1B while distributing sweets.
When I woke up, I am fine, I guess. Besides being dizzy, I'm practically fine.
After an hour, went to bed and few moments later, I'm having cold sweats all over me. I am cold, but when I touched myself, it's as if I touched a kettle with water boiling up to 100degree celcius. Ok, I'm being a bit dramatical here. But you get the point right. I'm boiling hot.

Took panadol and tried to get a good sleep. Guess what, I CANT SLEEP. My friggin eyes wont shut and my left ear aches. Kept on rollin left and right on the bed. Reminds me of the Bollywood movies. Couples rollin down a mountain while singing love songs. Why dont they ever get hurt doing that, I've no idea~ It gets funny at times, and romantic as well. Ok, I'm talking crap now.

Anyways, after rolling on the bed while suffering from ear aches, jumped off the bed and went to mom's room wit my blanky wrapping me. She asked me a few times whether I wanna go to the doc, and I hesitated the 1st few times. Last last, terpaksa also go cz I cant stand the pain no more.

She changed and I just grabbed my sweater cz I feel so cold as if it's winter here in Sabah.
We arrived at the clinic and there's this cute lil girl, maybe she's 1 or 2 year old. Dressed in pink. Nearly bumped her when I opened the door but her bro which is around 5 or 6 grabbed her. What a protective bro. He was holding her back the whole time when she's being wild in the clinic. I wished I had a brother. Biological ones I mean. But that's imposibble now that I am borned. The one and only child.
Anyways, the girl was soo cute, I feel like hugging her :D

After sittin outside for few minutes, my name was called and it was my turn.
Opened the door with the sign "Dr. Amrik Singh" and went in. Mom came along.
Dr asked me what happened and I told him "fever and my ear aches".
He asked me whether my throat was ok and I said yea.
He took sumtin like a black band aid and placed it on my forehead.
After that, he took a torchlight and said "say Aaaa~".
Then he took this, I dont know what it's called and checked my aching left ear.
He sighed and said "bad".
He told my mom that I had middle ear infection.
It went from my throat to ear.
The membrane in my ear was scratched.
If the membrane bursts, it would leave a hole in my middle ear and that will lead to hearing problem.

After saying that, he said he had to treat me aggresively. Whatever that means.
He injected me on my back and I had to go back to the clinic after 5 days.
*sigh*
I dont wanna be deff in such young age.
Of all the times. Why now. I hope things wont get critical :]

Fever :]

Highlight(s) for the day:
- Fever
- Party

Just got back home from Aunty Leony's house. It was her birthday. Happy Birthday Aunty :]
Anyways, it was fun looking at adults doin silly acts. Including my mom.
Yes my beloved mom. She got wild, which is normal. I grew up watching her and her friends being wild in parties.

Earlier today, fever striked. Suffering~
It's been a while since I got sick. And fever made me so weak and it affected my eyesight as well.
Went out of my room around 11.30am and I walk like a drunken girl seeking for med.
Searched in the tupperware full of meds, gastric, berak-berak, kahit.... I found "fever", but it was empty.
So I went out of my parents room and checked in every cabinets in the kitchen, hoping to find Panadol. None.
Called mom and asked her where did she put the panadol, and she said ask from Aunty.
So yea. I have to walk to the back of the house which seems like million miles away from me as I am feeling weak from head to toe.
Even standing still is hard for me. Few moments later, she gave me Panadol.
Went to bed after consuming it and I slept til 1.30pm. Feeling much more better already :]

After taking my lunch, went to bed again and woke up around 6. Or was it before 6. I dont know.
Went on9 right after I woke up. Lappy's not that far away from me. So yea :P

I am so dang bored lah now. Not working later oh, my bos, Kev, insisted that I should get a good rest.
Suit urself then. Haha. There goes another day of boredom.




Live the dream you've dreamt of - Lucky.Santangela.Catherine.James.Yong :]

Mysterious-ness :]

Well Hello Blog. I am once again active starting from now. As today is my day off, I havent slept for the last 13 hours.
I am bored. Very.

Well well. My bos, Edmund, just kept on asking me why I'm such a reserved person when it comes to public or talking. I remember him asking me whether I have a stage fright or sumtin. Well yes I do, although I did sang in front of a big crowd on the stage for KKHS Night in our school hall. That was embarassing and yes, my hands were shivering that I can feel cold sweats in my palms that night.
He did said that I have this Jekyll and Hyde personality earlier today. I gotta admit that, I strongly agree with you on that. Yes, I am Dr.Jekyll when it comes to chatting or texting, but say hello to Mr.Hyde when you're seeing me face to face :]

I am a quiet person. Need I remind you of it? Well it's obvious isnt it. I dont talk much cz I cant think of anything to talk bout if you're not a close person to me. Reminds me of Stan, Aubrey, Jas, Yee Thing, Kevin Vun. I guess in class, these were the people that I actually talk to, A LOT. The others were... well... we talked, when they have something to ask me bout bowling and I have something to ask them bout homeworks. Apart from that, I have my own world in class.

Well I do play along with Jason, Chan2, Jia Hui, Teo, Jonathan. Cz they're sitting behind me and beside me. Those rascals. I miss them already. I remembered when I was talking a lot and asked a lot of questions that Jason asked me this "What got in to you today? You're so high lah. Got boyfriend ady dis kan". Wth lah. It's once in a blue moon that I'll actually get high and you're not appreaciating my high-ness. What a waste :P

I tend to type a lot. Reminds me of my old blog(s) which I forgot the passwords and email adds to. I wrote tonnes of craps that can make your eyes bleed just reading it. Believe me. Some even got tired just reading it :D

I do hope that I can really socialize with people easily.
I grew up as a talkative kid and now, as I reached puberty, I got more into the silence part. Cant blame the puberty itself. Some things that happened in my past made me isolated myself from people. I rather live in my own world. I keep my head down most of the time rather than looking into people's eyes or faces. Accept for children.
I love children so much that when I go to a party with a lot of children, I actually make friends with them.
I am friends with all my mom's friends' offsprings. Only for like ages of 14 and below.
My mom was wondering why did I have such drastic change. But I dont think she'll figure out the reason(s).

There's a time in life where I reached the point when I think I should go for a psychiatrist. That period of time has made me suffered for a few months. Shredding tears everynight and cried till I fall asleep. It was tiring. Really tiring. I even texted a counselour. But when she asked me what the problem actually was, I stopped replying her, broke down and cried. You might think I'm a cry baby. But I cry in my own shadow of darkness. I never exploded and scolded someone so hard that I yelled at them, cz I prefer to cry than offending them with my words.

When I found out bout the bloody truth and what I've experienced. My life changed to 180 degrees.
I feel so empty. I questioned myself with stupid questions.
I can never accept the fact that my life before was just a fantasy.
It was like the scriptwriter deleted the old stories and decided to write a new one.
Everything has made me lose hope and I can never trust anybody else in life.
When it comes to feelings, it takes time for me to have faith in someone.

It's funny when people seek for your advices when they have problems.
But you yourself, cant even solve your own prob.
I tried to stay strong. Hide everything. Put on a mask and smile.
But how long can all these be kept in me without me erupting like a volcano?
That, is a question that I can never have an answer to.
Time, will decide :]

Cheongsam Girl :]

17th Of February 2010 Sunny day

Highlight(s) for the day:
-Day off!
-Phone call woke me up. Dejavu.

Ahh~ Finally a day off after working for 4 days straight as cheongsam girl and not to mention, a platinum card promoter if our bos feels like torturing us and dont wanna let us go :D

CCEP "hired" me. This was for the Chinese New Year event. I agreed wit Kev for the job cz he said it's almost the same as last Christmas, distributing sweets to children and taking pictures. So "chai shen ye" popped into my mind, as last christmas, Santa was my partner. But it turns out that they dont have any "chai shen ye". Was wondering why for like a week, until I asked Kev for the reason why and he said "the outfit for chai shen ye is expensive". So sad lah man.

Anyways, it was fun working. Although the first two days, we were told to distribute flyers for 1Sulaman. They have this promotion price for the condominium. Suffering though. It's been a while since I stand/walk on heels for hours. I seldom wear heels, as sport shoes and slippers were my choices of footwear.

Saturday, 6th Feb 2010: On the first day of work, my partner was Yee Ling. A 19 year old girl. Her face looks familiar to me. So I thought she was from kkhs before. And I was wrong for that cz she said she was from SM Shan Tao. Well guess what, her face looks familiar to me cz I saw her in bowling alley with a group of Shan Tao girls who used to train with Mr.Lim, two years ago.

Sunday, 7th Feb 2010: On the second day of work, I have a different partner. She turns out to be Elizabeth Morris, 20 year old girl. My childhood friend. But we're not that close. Our mothers were close friends though. But now her mom is in KL. So yea, aunty calls my mom every now and then and they're gonna spend some time talking on the phone.

Saturday til Tuesday, 13th-16th Feb 2010: I thought that I only work on weekends, but nahh. Extra two days of working. My partner was the same person in these few days. Priscilla, Kev's Poli classmate. 20 year old. Never thought that she was a pure philipino. And the uncle who spoke tagalog with me when I was distributing sweets to children was her dad! :]
She's a friendly girl. We got along well. Gonna miss her though.

Well Im glad that I have good bosses. Richado, Kevin and Edmund. Richado's not around. So Kev and Edmund took care of us. Although the one who turns out to be torturing us the whole time was Edmund, I realized that we have to respect him cz he's under 1B, and 1B is CCEP's client. Client = bos.
Kev told us to screw him if we get the chance. I did my best to fulfill your wish Kev xD

I wonder who's gonna be my partner this Friday. 4 more days for me to work then Im off to KL next Saturday :D
Im gonna miss Sabah so much. 3 months in a new town. I am nervous enough already.

Blindfolded. Chapter 1 :]

A pair of blind-folded eyes were finally exposed to fresh air when a piece of cloth was removed after being stuck there for all these years.

All these years after she was tortured by agony. That piece of cloth was there to witness every little thing that happened to her. That piece of cloth became the pair of eyes for her. That piece of cloth wiped away her tears and tasted her bitter sadness. That piece of cloth was there when she felt miserably alone. That piece of cloth was there when she was angry to people she shouldnt be. That piece of cloth was there when she was being rude to her father and mother and perhaps, people around her.

That piece of cloth was attached to her the whole time, until one day, someone unattached it and that was when she sees the world, in a completely different angle. And realised that, that piece of clothing was called Anger Hatred. Funny when a piece of clothing turns out to be your feelings that blindfolded you all this while. And that was what happened to her.

It was one sunny day where Mr.Sun is hanging high up in the sky and taking over Mrs.Moon's job to light up our world. Clouds can be seen moving slowly as if the wind has a pair of mouth to blow them away and let us see the shy and clear blue sky that was hiding behind the clouds. Birds chirping, flapping their wings, singing their melody of whistling. Butterflies can be found resting on flowers with their beautiful colourful pair of wings that attracts children in the park to observe them with innocent looks on their faces. Wanted to go near but was afraid as if those butterflies will hurt them. Taking one or two steps behind when they pulled their small hands away after trying to reach for one of the butterfly that was seen resting on a rubbish bin beside a park bench. Children were circling the rubbish bin with their eyes on that one lil butterfly. Afraid of losing it. Mothers were chit chatting nearby with towels on their neck, little beads of sweat were spotted on their foreheads showing how hot of a day it was. A weather children loved so much because they can have fun at the park without mothers saying No Playing At the Park Because it's Raining.

It was a peaceful day at the park that was situated in the middle of a neighbourhood. A neighbourhood where everyone knows each other and live like a big family. But a peaceful day came to an end when she was screaming and yelling in pain with all her heart. Some of the adults that was working out in the park was shocked with the scream and tried to locate where the woman's voice came from. They approached the voice and found out that it was Sally who did the screaming. Wearing a duster, she was found lying on the garage floor with white fluids on the floor. Crying and sweating. Hairs untied and her fringe was all wet. Both hands on her watermelon-like stomach. Few woman ran to her and calmed her down. Mr.Docente, an Italian guy, in his 40's, 6 foot 2 tall, black hair and having signs, starting to become bold, tanned wrinkly skinned, immediately reached for his cellphone and called for the ambulance.

Holding Mrs.Soledad's hand so tightly in pain that made her hand red as Sally was placed on a stretcher and was rushed to the emergency room. Mr.Docente, one of the closest person to Sally's family was sitting outside, trying to call Sally's husband, Hephaiston Collins. Almost 30 phonecalls were made but it was useless, as Hephaiston's phone was out of reach. Hephaiston is a successful businessman selling American Ginseng that can be found wildly in the forests of North America. This had made him busy as he has to fly back and forth from New Mexico. They livc in a city in New Mexico, Santa Fe with the population of 72,056 people. With so many phonecalls that was done by Mr.Docente, he left Hephaiston a voicemail instead, telling him that his wife was submitted in Christus St. Vincent Regional Medical Center, hoping he'll take the first flight home after he listened to the voicemail.

Bright light was shining so brightly but all Sally can think of was the pain she's feeling. As if her stomach was gonna blow and the green veins on her head was getting obvious. She never stopped crying and was holding the nurse's hand so tightly after Mrs.Soledad was forbidden from coming into the room as she wasnt one of Sally's family members. Sally's pain can be seen from her face as she tried her very best to push the baby out of her womb. 8 hours of screaming, crying, sweating, hurting and exhausted, finally, that last push gave her a sigh of relief for one second. Silence.
Doctors and nurses was stunt and smiled. Their smiles cant be seen with facemasks on them, but their narrowed cheerfully eyes shows it all. A cry broke the silence and everyone in the room were happy as a soul is borned today. 1 was added to the population list of Santa Fe, making it 72,057.

A nurse came near to Sally and showed her, her baby, and it was a baby girl. Sally took her baby and smiled with tears of joy rolling down her cheek, and kissed her baby on the forehead. Looking at her baby deeply, smiling the whole time. And she said "Anastasia". She named her Anastasia. Hoping that she will rise again everytime she falls in the future. That was the meaning of her baby girl's name. One who shall rise again.

She looked at the nurse who took her baby to her, and somehow, the nurse leaned down, as if she can read Sally's eyes. Sally whispered to her and told her to give her baby to Mr.Docente and that Mr.Docente knows what he should give the baby girl. With the last word of "thanks", she kissed her baby once again and closed her eyes. Permenantly. The room that was filled with laughter because of the success of the borned baby, turns to an atmosphere of sadness when they realised that she was gone, forever. The population was once again, back to 72,056.