Christmas?
Cant wait for it to come :D
I can feel it in me. Dont know why.
But somehow, I'm excited for this year's christmas.
Expecting something special to happen.
If it was like last year's, it would be great.
Or maybe it'll be way better than last year?
Who knows ;]
SPM is around the corner, yet I still din study.
Amcm lah result aku nnti ah?
Credits all the way? ataupun.... Palis2~ :S
I miss Uncle Leong.
Where are you uncle? When will we meet again?
It's been years since we last met.
Still rmbr those days when you took me to go kedai runcit with your motorbike.
I really miss you. I heard mom said that you were in semenanjung.
I wonder, will you still remember me?
Though we've been apart from each other for years,
still, I cant forget bout you. You loved me so.
I know. I love you too :)
I pray to God that I'll meet you again someday.
Cant wait for that day to come.
Jiwang oh. Hee.
Lately, my life's full of jiwang-ness.
Stuffs happening here and there.
Challenges I got from above?
It's tough alright.
Sometimes I wish that all these will just go away and let me live a peaceful life.
But to think of it again, without those stuffs, what is Life?
What/how will life be?
My answer: Dull.
I'll leave highschool soon. Less than 2 months.
Kinda sad though.
5 years of highschool.
It was really a blink of an eye thing.
First I was found lost in KK High School, and the next thing you know,
I'm steppin out from that school. Bringing precious unforgettable memories with me. *tears*
Betul2 in jiwang mood oh me this.
I wonder, what am I gonna look like in the future?
Of course, older than I am now.
But then, am I really gonna be a stewardress? xD
Am I gonna achieve my dreams? Sehhh.
Hope so lah kan. *fingers crossed*
If only there's a time-machine.
If if if if if if.
I wonder who my soulmate is xD
Ataupun I jadi anak dara tua?
Atau jadi nun kah?
Okay I'm bored. It's been a while since I abandoned my blog.
I wasnt in the mood of writing. Dont know why.
Before this, I was like gila blogging that I can publish 3 posts in a day.
Guess when people gets older, they kinda change huh :D
Aint life just full of obstacles :]
25th October 2009, 6th day of raya, I declare that as the day I was single again :)
Had a big fight.
Gettin closer to a new friend.
Knew him for quite a while already,
but then, we just saw each other in a certain place, nvr really had any conversation.
Certain website made us closer as we always chat, and soon, he became my textmate.
But that was only for like a month or less.
Something happened, and that was kinda related to why I became single.
He was the one who made me realise bout the truth.
He made me SEE with my eyes but not my heart.
I was blind folded by sweet talks, lies, sh*ts.
All this while, I thought he was the one for me.
But I shud've known.
All those fights and stuffs he did shud've made me realise.
Was such a fool to give him chance more than twice.
I thank my textmate for telling me the truth.
No worries, I will never tell him what you've told me.
I can never thank you enough.
If it wasnt for you, I would never know all those stuffs.
But hey, dont get it wrong. I didnt broke up with him because of you.
You knew that we had problems before we even broke up right.
I'm sorry if this made you think that you're the one who broke us up.
But no, you were'nt the reason why.
I learned a lesson in my life, but I learned it the hard way.
I don't know why I'm always in love with the wrong kind.
Fate I guess? :]
It was never wrong for you to be my textmate.
To be close to me.
But I understand if you were scared that he'll find out bout it.
No worries. He'll never even know that we contacted each other for the past few weeks.
Lately, it's been kinda awkward between us both. I know.
And I'm just sorry for everything. I guess less contacting each other is better.
Yesterday, I went to a certain place and nearly cried in that certain place.
How embarassing it'll be if I cried in public huh.
I know. At least I controlled my tears from rolling down my sweaty cheek :]
He came and talked to me.
Begging for one last chance. Cant you see, how many chances I've given you?
Last time, it was the 4th time, and I've told you it was the last chance,
and you said "okay. I'll change".
Now that I've found out that you lied bout having an ex, lied bout nvr fell in love,
you expect me to give you one last chance and be fooled for the one last time?
You think I'm some kinda lifeless doll? No feelings at all?
Think again.
Now, I doubt bout your love.
You can lie bout having an ex,
I dont see any impossibilities for you to lie bout your love towards me.
I'm sick and tired of all those lies.
So pls just understand.
After he went away, another guy came.
Giving me that ohh-kesian-me kinda look.
Cant you see that I just talked to someone and obviously I'll be getting upset,
but you, came, gave me that sad look and wanted to talk to me?
I need time and space.
I broke up doesnt mean that I'll go and accept you right that instance.
Why cant you people just stop bothering me bout getting a chance to be with me
and try to understand my darn situation I'm facing here?
I'll be sitting for my SPM in 4 weeks time.
I cant get my ex off my mind for what he did.
Everytime I had nothing to do, advertisements were on tv, HE will popped into my dang mind.
Making me stress and eventually, I feel tears.
I'm tired of crying.
Trying to forget it.
But somehow, I just cant. This was the worst thing that had ever happened to me.
My reputation was ruined just because of your stupid stories.
And you dont even wanna admit!
How I wish my life was taken right now.
Right at this moment.
I had issues with guys and yes, I know that.
Thanks to him, it got worst. Trauma?
I guess so.
The past really makes me speechless.
Present makes me feel like dying.
My future?
I'm guessing.....
I'll be spending most of my time alone while others have their soulmates beside them.
I dont give a damn.
If that is what gonna happen next, I'm not gonna complain bout a thing.
But if it was the other way around,
I thank God He gave me someone to be with me till death do us part.
Whatever it's gonna be, I'm just darn stressed now and nothing can change that. Ever.
Had a big fight.
Gettin closer to a new friend.
Knew him for quite a while already,
but then, we just saw each other in a certain place, nvr really had any conversation.
Certain website made us closer as we always chat, and soon, he became my textmate.
But that was only for like a month or less.
Something happened, and that was kinda related to why I became single.
He was the one who made me realise bout the truth.
He made me SEE with my eyes but not my heart.
I was blind folded by sweet talks, lies, sh*ts.
All this while, I thought he was the one for me.
But I shud've known.
All those fights and stuffs he did shud've made me realise.
Was such a fool to give him chance more than twice.
I thank my textmate for telling me the truth.
No worries, I will never tell him what you've told me.
I can never thank you enough.
If it wasnt for you, I would never know all those stuffs.
But hey, dont get it wrong. I didnt broke up with him because of you.
You knew that we had problems before we even broke up right.
I'm sorry if this made you think that you're the one who broke us up.
But no, you were'nt the reason why.
I learned a lesson in my life, but I learned it the hard way.
I don't know why I'm always in love with the wrong kind.
Fate I guess? :]
It was never wrong for you to be my textmate.
To be close to me.
But I understand if you were scared that he'll find out bout it.
No worries. He'll never even know that we contacted each other for the past few weeks.
Lately, it's been kinda awkward between us both. I know.
And I'm just sorry for everything. I guess less contacting each other is better.
Yesterday, I went to a certain place and nearly cried in that certain place.
How embarassing it'll be if I cried in public huh.
I know. At least I controlled my tears from rolling down my sweaty cheek :]
He came and talked to me.
Begging for one last chance. Cant you see, how many chances I've given you?
Last time, it was the 4th time, and I've told you it was the last chance,
and you said "okay. I'll change".
Now that I've found out that you lied bout having an ex, lied bout nvr fell in love,
you expect me to give you one last chance and be fooled for the one last time?
You think I'm some kinda lifeless doll? No feelings at all?
Think again.
Now, I doubt bout your love.
You can lie bout having an ex,
I dont see any impossibilities for you to lie bout your love towards me.
I'm sick and tired of all those lies.
So pls just understand.
After he went away, another guy came.
Giving me that ohh-kesian-me kinda look.
Cant you see that I just talked to someone and obviously I'll be getting upset,
but you, came, gave me that sad look and wanted to talk to me?
I need time and space.
I broke up doesnt mean that I'll go and accept you right that instance.
Why cant you people just stop bothering me bout getting a chance to be with me
and try to understand my darn situation I'm facing here?
I'll be sitting for my SPM in 4 weeks time.
I cant get my ex off my mind for what he did.
Everytime I had nothing to do, advertisements were on tv, HE will popped into my dang mind.
Making me stress and eventually, I feel tears.
I'm tired of crying.
Trying to forget it.
But somehow, I just cant. This was the worst thing that had ever happened to me.
My reputation was ruined just because of your stupid stories.
And you dont even wanna admit!
How I wish my life was taken right now.
Right at this moment.
I had issues with guys and yes, I know that.
Thanks to him, it got worst. Trauma?
I guess so.
The past really makes me speechless.
Present makes me feel like dying.
My future?
I'm guessing.....
I'll be spending most of my time alone while others have their soulmates beside them.
I dont give a damn.
If that is what gonna happen next, I'm not gonna complain bout a thing.
But if it was the other way around,
I thank God He gave me someone to be with me till death do us part.
Whatever it's gonna be, I'm just darn stressed now and nothing can change that. Ever.
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